sorry everyone...i'm shutting down my fb...
some of this reasons are not rational at all but;i'n
1-busy (i'm not lying)
2- tired of being a hypocrite
3- in pain while in love
4- to cut down my addiction
5- it's just a temporary separation until i heal...
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Definition of IB.... (if you're a current IB or an ex-IB student,,read this shit)..haha
I'm curious on what people think of IB and here I am googling the 'term IB ' in
urbandictionary .com..........
here are some sick definitions of IB= International Baccalaureate. (luckily I'm over with my IB stuff already)
Def 1:IB
urbandictionary .com..........
here are some sick definitions of IB= International Baccalaureate. (luckily I'm over with my IB stuff already)
Def 1:IB
A.K.A. International Baccalaureate - A malicious program aimed at the unnaturally brighter population in an attempt to overload their brains, thus reducing them to vegetables without lives. However, a true IB student will respond by adapting and bsing their way through.
IB, therefore I BS.
IB - Teaching students how to turn shit into gold!
Def 2:
A program created in an attempt to control the minds of the youths of the future, implemented by Swiss lawn gnomes, by preventing their exposure to the outside world.
The state goals of the program are to provide students with an education rounded out accross five program areas ("groups") - including Language 1, Language 2, Social Sciences, Science, Math, and Art/Option. Additional elements of the program include CAS (a system used to force students out of the house once in a while), ToK (philosophy) and Extended Essay.
In an attempt to shove too much information down the throats of students, the program ends up significantly improving the core skill required to succeed in IB: Bullshit.
Def 3:
DO YOU AGREE WITH THESE????!!
IB - Teaching students how to turn shit into gold!
Def 2:
A program created in an attempt to control the minds of the youths of the future, implemented by Swiss lawn gnomes, by preventing their exposure to the outside world.
The state goals of the program are to provide students with an education rounded out accross five program areas ("groups") - including Language 1, Language 2, Social Sciences, Science, Math, and Art/Option. Additional elements of the program include CAS (a system used to force students out of the house once in a while), ToK (philosophy) and Extended Essay.
In an attempt to shove too much information down the throats of students, the program ends up significantly improving the core skill required to succeed in IB: Bullshit.
Def 3:
Commonly thought to be a magnet program, International Baccalaureate is in reality a cleverly disguised plot to steal the souls, sleep, and free wills of high school students. Pros include mad bs'ing skills
See also: Academic Suicide
See also: Academic Suicide
I am, therefore I B
I B, therefore I stress
I stress, therefore IBS
there're a lot more...but let's just end with IB is...
Hated by most and loved by few, it is academically rigorous and difficult, and not for the light-hearted.
I B, therefore I stress
I stress, therefore IBS
there're a lot more...but let's just end with IB is...
Hated by most and loved by few, it is academically rigorous and difficult, and not for the light-hearted.
DO YOU AGREE WITH THESE????!!
Friday, October 30, 2009
complicated...(dont read only half)
herm....instant marriage?? maggie marriage?? do u believe in love at second sight?? do u believe in reunion??? i dont but it doesn't mean that it can't happen, can't it???
this is so troublesome.... having to fall for him again
Love is blind... so blind that it costs me $40 yesterday.
i'm suppose to be in the USA to study and earn my degree ...
not get myself into trouble ..
i'm not ready to commit but ................(this is so complicated..)
he is just too hard to resist...
black, solid and very mascular indeed...
no guys can ever compete with him.
in fact, everyone thinks he's cool and tempting.(no doubt about that)
i have a paper to hand in next week. I might not be able to focus in this relationship...
should I get involved again...???
or should I just deny my feeling towards him>>??
Apparently, it has been years since we last spoken to each other.
dumping him, leaving him heart broken was one of the regretable moment in my life...
i tried finding a replacement but it's just not the same.
the sight of him is too much to handle.
the fact that we would be seeing each other every single day is a fact that I need to grasp. like FAST!!
there he is, asking for my commitment, n there I am denying every single request...
I dont know what to do....completely lost right now...
(to be continued......................in the next post)
this is so troublesome.... having to fall for him again
Love is blind... so blind that it costs me $40 yesterday.
i'm suppose to be in the USA to study and earn my degree ...
not get myself into trouble ..
i'm not ready to commit but ................(this is so complicated..)
he is just too hard to resist...
black, solid and very mascular indeed...
no guys can ever compete with him.
in fact, everyone thinks he's cool and tempting.(no doubt about that)
i have a paper to hand in next week. I might not be able to focus in this relationship...
should I get involved again...???
or should I just deny my feeling towards him>>??
Apparently, it has been years since we last spoken to each other.
dumping him, leaving him heart broken was one of the regretable moment in my life...
i tried finding a replacement but it's just not the same.
the sight of him is too much to handle.
the fact that we would be seeing each other every single day is a fact that I need to grasp. like FAST!!
there he is, asking for my commitment, n there I am denying every single request...
I dont know what to do....completely lost right now...
(to be continued......................in the next post)
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
x tenang...
i hate it when there a change in hormone level, esp when estrogen starts to peak. I'll get REALLY MAD and MOODY...for no reason.
feel like throwing everything around me..
feel like crying my hearts out
feel like injuring myself
feel like dying
conclusion: feel like shit!
feel so lonely. tried to call home but HARAM, sorng pun x angkat.
want to call my friends, x de kredit.
plus I dont want to add worry to their daily life.
Let me drown in my own miserable emotions.
feel like throwing everything around me..
feel like crying my hearts out
feel like injuring myself
feel like dying
conclusion: feel like shit!
feel so lonely. tried to call home but HARAM, sorng pun x angkat.
want to call my friends, x de kredit.
plus I dont want to add worry to their daily life.
Let me drown in my own miserable emotions.
Monday, October 26, 2009
What happened in Chicago will NOT stay in Chicago....
Before I post some of my frustration about a recent issue regarding my facebook thing..
let me just shade some light to my blog readers about an experience that I've gain while I was in Chicago....
ONe thing about Chicago is that nobody should walk alone at night especially in the city centre. Why??? Because they are some many homeless, gangster and rugged people dwelling in the corner of just about any street in Chicago...
I was crazy enough to take some risk to do an ethnography towards Chicago people, after living for 2 months in Bloomington, I've always thought that USA is a good place to live....
but after reaching a shithole like Chicago , i dont think USA is much more civilized than Malaysia.
Anyway back to the story...(babah, you would be furious and worried sick about me after this but this is something that I want to experiment and experience)
While my other friends were having dinner in a hotel with their Bank Negara sponsors, I was alone for a couple of hours in that city.So I decided to stretch my legs by walking at the riverside right across the hotel. (again, walking ALONE in Chicago is an ABSOLUTE NO NO esp at night and esp if you're a FEMALE)...
being a daredevil , I went out walking outside....
after less than 100-meter from the hotel entrance, I was approached by a homeless black man with his young son, he asked me for something to give him...and feeling sorry for him and his small kid, I said
'I'm sorry man...I dont have anything to give you but this Granola bar' and he replied.
' It's good enough. God Bless you'.... I was so surprised because I didn't expect the homeless situation here to be so critical..... (suddenly I felt grateful and sorry for the Blacks)
That is one story....
NOw story 2....
several minutes later,
while I was taking some air at the chicago riverside, rain started to pour down...... then there was this black man holding an umbrella while riding a worn-out bicycle approached me... there was a certain trepidation but I just shrugged it off because my rising curiosity towards the walking black poverty.
He greeted me and asked whether I'm waiting for some one...(one should never reply or talk to stranger but I did the opposite just to see the outcome)
I said' I'm waiting for my friend in a hotel' and he said... 'Well, he should have been here and not leave you in the rain'...he asked again ' so, where is this hotel?? I can walk you with an umbrella...' Then I was uncertain about this sudden politeness and courtesy by a total stranger..
By the look of his face, I can tell that he is an honest homeless Black guy trying to earn some bucks by providing a service to people...so....
Being a daredevil again, I accepted his offer and let him walk me with an umbrella (I did have my OWN umbrella in my beg but I just wanted to see and discover the reality of homeless people)
While he was walking me to the hotel which was just across the street (x jauh pun), he mentioned about how he has to earn $18 every night just to get a motel shelter for his wife, stepson and brother. He said that he doesnt like to shake cup and begging on the street like most homeless people. He prefer to earn his money and work.
To keep long story short... I interviewed him along the short trip to the 'right-in-front-of-my- eyes hotel'
I asked stuff like;
1-Why is there so many homeless people in Chicago??
2-Why is there no fund to help these poor people??
3-and even what is Obama is doing to overcome this???
*one thing for sure, Obama is not making things anymore easier for these people. (the black guy@phillip made a face when I mentioned Obama's name)
then at the hotel lobby, I gave him $5...(sbb dah lama x kluar sedekah pun)
and I said that I'll pray for him...
do you what happened next????
He gave me this big, sincere and grateful HUG cuz my $5 was gonna provide a roof on his head on that night.
I WAS DUMBFOUNDED... i would never expect my FIRTS HUG from an American would come from a BLACK HOMELESS guy who has this sincere, appreciative look in his eyes....
suddenly a crash instant humane feeling started to accumulate in my heart..
this story is not done yet....DONT STOP READING...
then , as I entered the hotel lobby, I saw groups of WHiTE people with expensive attires enjoying themselves with a glass of expensive wine or scotch at the bar.
Reality struck me... OUTSIDE ...on the dark cold city, the BLACK people are having a hard time to even feed themselves and their family...while
INSIDE the HOTEL, the WHITE people are treating themselves to luxurious items....
i felt disgusted with this ugly realm.
This is like a third world country in the 'THE BEST FIRST wORLD COUNTRY:USA'
Bullshit...capitalism sucks (plz excuse my language but it's true....)
the Blacks are still being discriminated and racism still exists......
let me just shade some light to my blog readers about an experience that I've gain while I was in Chicago....
ONe thing about Chicago is that nobody should walk alone at night especially in the city centre. Why??? Because they are some many homeless, gangster and rugged people dwelling in the corner of just about any street in Chicago...
I was crazy enough to take some risk to do an ethnography towards Chicago people, after living for 2 months in Bloomington, I've always thought that USA is a good place to live....
but after reaching a shithole like Chicago , i dont think USA is much more civilized than Malaysia.
Anyway back to the story...(babah, you would be furious and worried sick about me after this but this is something that I want to experiment and experience)
While my other friends were having dinner in a hotel with their Bank Negara sponsors, I was alone for a couple of hours in that city.So I decided to stretch my legs by walking at the riverside right across the hotel. (again, walking ALONE in Chicago is an ABSOLUTE NO NO esp at night and esp if you're a FEMALE)...
being a daredevil , I went out walking outside....
after less than 100-meter from the hotel entrance, I was approached by a homeless black man with his young son, he asked me for something to give him...and feeling sorry for him and his small kid, I said
'I'm sorry man...I dont have anything to give you but this Granola bar' and he replied.
' It's good enough. God Bless you'.... I was so surprised because I didn't expect the homeless situation here to be so critical..... (suddenly I felt grateful and sorry for the Blacks)
That is one story....
NOw story 2....
several minutes later,
while I was taking some air at the chicago riverside, rain started to pour down...... then there was this black man holding an umbrella while riding a worn-out bicycle approached me... there was a certain trepidation but I just shrugged it off because my rising curiosity towards the walking black poverty.
He greeted me and asked whether I'm waiting for some one...(one should never reply or talk to stranger but I did the opposite just to see the outcome)
I said' I'm waiting for my friend in a hotel' and he said... 'Well, he should have been here and not leave you in the rain'...he asked again ' so, where is this hotel?? I can walk you with an umbrella...' Then I was uncertain about this sudden politeness and courtesy by a total stranger..
By the look of his face, I can tell that he is an honest homeless Black guy trying to earn some bucks by providing a service to people...so....
Being a daredevil again, I accepted his offer and let him walk me with an umbrella (I did have my OWN umbrella in my beg but I just wanted to see and discover the reality of homeless people)
While he was walking me to the hotel which was just across the street (x jauh pun), he mentioned about how he has to earn $18 every night just to get a motel shelter for his wife, stepson and brother. He said that he doesnt like to shake cup and begging on the street like most homeless people. He prefer to earn his money and work.
To keep long story short... I interviewed him along the short trip to the 'right-in-front-of-my- eyes hotel'
I asked stuff like;
1-Why is there so many homeless people in Chicago??
2-Why is there no fund to help these poor people??
3-and even what is Obama is doing to overcome this???
*one thing for sure, Obama is not making things anymore easier for these people. (the black guy@phillip made a face when I mentioned Obama's name)
then at the hotel lobby, I gave him $5...(sbb dah lama x kluar sedekah pun)
and I said that I'll pray for him...
do you what happened next????
He gave me this big, sincere and grateful HUG cuz my $5 was gonna provide a roof on his head on that night.
I WAS DUMBFOUNDED... i would never expect my FIRTS HUG from an American would come from a BLACK HOMELESS guy who has this sincere, appreciative look in his eyes....
suddenly a crash instant humane feeling started to accumulate in my heart..
this story is not done yet....DONT STOP READING...
then , as I entered the hotel lobby, I saw groups of WHiTE people with expensive attires enjoying themselves with a glass of expensive wine or scotch at the bar.
Reality struck me... OUTSIDE ...on the dark cold city, the BLACK people are having a hard time to even feed themselves and their family...while
INSIDE the HOTEL, the WHITE people are treating themselves to luxurious items....
i felt disgusted with this ugly realm.
This is like a third world country in the 'THE BEST FIRST wORLD COUNTRY:USA'
Bullshit...capitalism sucks (plz excuse my language but it's true....)
the Blacks are still being discriminated and racism still exists......
Thursday, October 22, 2009
girltalk...
mlm yg best after having 300 comments from my girlfriends on my facebook wall.....
(giler la diorg ni...in one night....girltalk...)
confirm x larat nk baca....kpd org yg nk stalking aku...herm...lupkn..
HAHAHA>.better dont
I'm a facebook addict... i miss my girlfriends....
Han sayang...Min Honey....Casey Tembam....Ika Dear....Joja hermm.....
MIss u guys...ops girls..
(giler la diorg ni...in one night....girltalk...)
confirm x larat nk baca....kpd org yg nk stalking aku...herm...lupkn..
HAHAHA>.better dont
I'm a facebook addict... i miss my girlfriends....
Han sayang...Min Honey....Casey Tembam....Ika Dear....Joja hermm.....
MIss u guys...ops girls..
The Art of Procrastination....(college skills)
To students (college or uni)....here is some of the ways to master this art of procrastination that would normally take months to grab the whole gist.
If you're already behind schedule and kinda have screwed your assignment schedule (esp IB students)... here are some things that you should consider doing to make it up for the delay...
Being a true assignment hater at heart...I've been doing some experiments to discover an alternative pathway for an unadulterated college life (meaning party n stuff..hahaha..no la).
OK..here are the things you guys should look up to when you are doomed to a hellish week filled with deadlines.
p/s-sorry for any grammatical mistake....writing in a rush
If you're already behind schedule and kinda have screwed your assignment schedule (esp IB students)... here are some things that you should consider doing to make it up for the delay...
Being a true assignment hater at heart...I've been doing some experiments to discover an alternative pathway for an unadulterated college life (meaning party n stuff..hahaha..no la).
OK..here are the things you guys should look up to when you are doomed to a hellish week filled with deadlines.
- ASK FOR HELP. Do yourself a favor and put aside your ginormous ego. Go to your advisors/lecturers and kindly ask whether they have any idea how to make your life/ paper easier. (if you have a good relationship with them...u might wanna try your luck on postponing your deadline). *take note that this should be your last option cuz you dont wanna conjure a bad impression of yourself towards your lecturer/grader.
- If you are considering to become a procrastinator, you will need to have self-determination and strong will to sacrifice some fun time last minute. PLus you might need to destruct yourself with a REALLY strong dark coffee shot or expresso to keep going during the long arduous night while working on your paper. a person who can't work under pressure does not suit the criteria to become a procrastinator.....A TRUE SUCCESSFUL PRoCRASTINATOR is a person who has strong preseverance and well-establish resources.
- a procrastinator should always know where is the library and who's the most hardworking/smartest person in a particular class. Getting to know your resources is the best way to overcome small bumps while doing your papers......(this include last minute study which I dont encourage)
- Get an overall view of a particular assignment before you decide to delay any of it...you would be crazy if you decide to put aside a 10-page paper the night before the deadline.... STUPIDITY IS NOT AN OPTION.
- do self-reflection on whether you're a person that is insightful enough to delay a particular class assignment. If you are the type of person who skips or sleeps in class or take hours to understand a concept; FORGET IT, you will never Ace your Class if you become a PROCARTINATOR...
p/s-sorry for any grammatical mistake....writing in a rush
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
motivation
after a brief chat with majod.... a sense suddenly came kicking me hard on the stomach..or would I say my flabby stomach....
putting on my sneakers, I was so ready to get back on track after 1 month of not jogging kot...
AFTER this, i'm gonna make time to jog everyday even if I cant go to the gym ....
I'm gonna make full use of a good sunny day...
MUST GET FIT!! MUST NOT GeT SICK EVER AGAIN...!!
putting on my sneakers, I was so ready to get back on track after 1 month of not jogging kot...
AFTER this, i'm gonna make time to jog everyday even if I cant go to the gym ....
I'm gonna make full use of a good sunny day...
MUST GET FIT!! MUST NOT GeT SICK EVER AGAIN...!!
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